So……What Else Can I Do?

As long as I can remember, I have felt like I’m not very creative and I have been scared to even try new things for fear that people might think I’m stupid.

Have you ever felt this way? Like you don’t want to join that pottery class because people will see your creation and think it’s dumb? Or you don’t want to speak up in a class and share your idea or thought for fear of judgement from people in the room?

These are some of the thoughts that have held me back in my life, thoughts like “I’m not creative, I’m not smart enough, I might make a mistake, their is a right and wrong way to do it and I might do it wrong”.

Well…….since becoming a widow I have had the opportunity to do a lot of things that are outside my comfort zone.

Things that I’m not sure I would have ever done if Earl were still alive.

Things that have made me cry, things that have been so uncomfortable, things that I am so proud of and things that as hard as they were they have helped me grow.

THIS!!!!!!

THIS! is something that I’m really proud of.

This is a picture of The Garden Tomb.

We had a women’s activity at our church shortly before Easter and it was a paint night. I’m the Relief Society President (The president of an organization of women in or congregation) This is an activity that our committee put together and we had a woman come and guide us through painting our own image of the garden tomb.

Honestly……I WAS SCARED!!

I kept thinking of how I could maybe get out of it. I considered running a nursery for the kids of the young moms, I considered helping the facilitator by taking paint and water to those who needed it, I even thought about maybe just wandering around and visiting with the ladies as they painted.

I decided to allow the discomfort and try anyway.

I was so NERVOUS!!!

Nothing bad happened and I found out that it was very enjoyable.

I had a lot of fun.

People complimented my painting.

I enjoyed playing with all of the colors and seeing how the picture changed.

In fact……the very next day as I was looking at some pictures I was imagining how I might paint them!!!

………WHAT!!!

That has never happened to me.

I started thinking…..

WHAT POTENTIAL DO I HAVE?

WHAT COULD I CREATE IF I PUT MYSELF OUT THERE?